I'm Alive

So I just returned from seeing Juno for the third time in three days. It's my new all-time favorite. Like, everytime I go I find more and more things to love about it. More quirks and funny lines and even just expressions that are amazing. Pre-Juno, I had lunch with the female half of Nerd Crew, which is always really nice. I feel...understood. I have realized though that no matter who click with, there is always a part left hanging out, a part that doesn't match. Like, with them it's my penchant for punk-esque culture and my love of live shows and mosh pits and screaming songs and whatnot. With Eric and the rest of Pitched White it's my cutesy "OMG HELLO KITTY AND CUTE CLOTHES" side, which comes out quite often I've found. With church friends it's my nerdy-ness, etc etc. I just think that that's why I get frustrated with not having a "best friend", because I have so many parts to me. But I think everyone does, and not everyone has trouble sticking with a few close friends. Either way, I think I need to not worry about those silly things so much.

In other news, tomorrow is my last day at home. I am excited and dreading it at the same time. I don't want to leave Boy but mostly I don't want to leave my confidence behind. I did that first semester, I left the awesome part of me in Hickory and this time, it's coming along. I could care less how un-Chapel Hill I look, or how intelligent everyone else is, or how sometimes I eat alone and walk with my iPod in just because I feel anti-social. I don't care. I want to take the part of me that knows who she is, who is excited about who she is. Yep. It's gonna be super.

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