Almost Lover

So last night's church lock-in was probably the best night I've had in a while, just because it felt SO much like old times. I haven't talked to Jake much since the whole thing with Eric, because I was working on moving on from the whatever relationship we had going on. Since I don't think I've discussed this before on the blog, here's a tiny background:

Jake and I have gone to church together for forever and in our junior year, became really good friends through a mutual lovelovelove of music and good movies and other random things. But mostly music. So we got closer and closer that year, especially during the trips to Canada, the beach, and to ski, and we shared a common "Isle of Cool," which included Jake, Colby, and I, plus Patrick eventually. By the time we went to DC last summer, we were what most would call inseperable on trips (come to find out people (since the original bonding junior year) had literally been betting on when we would date). I sort of got caught up in everything and fell for him pretty hard, but Jake is a strange character. He doesn't show emotion, like, ever, which is okay sometimes because whiney boys are not terribly attractive to me, but then it just gets overwhelming when he NEVER answers anything seriously. Anyways, on the DC trip we got really really close and throughout the trip (and the subsequent hangouts) he was hardcore flirting with me, which is disturbing because he doesn't do stuff like that, so like an idiot I got my hopes up. But then Jesus Camp came around and he acted like the whole summer had never happened. I couldn't get the visual of us sitting close on the bus listening to any one of our many, many signature Jake/Jordan songs out of my head for months and he completely ignored me for the most part. So I kept talking to him until about November, when Eric happened, and since then I've seen him a couple times at church and stuff, but I haven't talked to him on a weekly basis by any stretch. Okay that wasn't a tiny history, sorry, but you now know the whole story. Kind of. Anyways, moving on.

I asked Jake to go last night and, after much prodding, he agreed, so I was kind of curious as to how it would be with us-- same as always? different because we hadn't talked? idk. So I went and immediately realized nottttthing had changed. We sat together on the bus and he was back to his usual anti-Jordan talk that really means he thinks I am awesome. Also we were remembering all the times he had been really super mean to me and he remembered far more than I did, including the bus-to-DC body checking (hockey reference), which is a very very obvious attempt to get closer to me. I remember this summer, he pinned me against the window at least 10 times and got really close and I pretended to hate it but instead loveloveloved it...but I digress. Anyways, he started that up again which was funny, and we hung out pretty much the whole time at the gymnastics place and while bowling. I'd forgotten how funny he is and often we dance and how confident I feel around him...strange. Then after said bowling trip, we headed back to the church and had a little free time, so we jammed--Jake on acoustic guitar and me on acoustic bass. He taught me "House of the Rising Sun" and we played the entiiire thing (and it's super long). Seth and Wilson looked over at us, smiling and Wilson was like, "Wow, you guys are exactly like those kids from Juno. Only Jordan's not pregnant." Hahahaha. But anyways I took that as a compliment, because the Juno/Bleaker romance is one to be admired, and apparently we are a lot like that. Now that I think of it we kind of are, only he is way more sarcastic than Bleaker...and I'm not preggerrrrs. But anyways I kept seeing people look at us and kind of say something to the person beside them and I couldn't help but feel like they were telling them the Epic of Jordan and Jake, about how everyone knew we should date except us or whatever. Maybe they weren't, but it DEFINITELY looked that way. Post-jam session (I also jammed with a 15 year old kid who knew sooo many of the songs I knew...weird), we played games and watched Drop Dead Gorgeous/Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure.

The moral of the story? I do not, in fact, want to date Jake. This may seem strange after all this talk of he and I, but I've realized it is so much better with us just going back and forth, trying to catch the other's interest, kidding around. That's the reason it's gone on so long-- it's so entertaining, it's addicting. So yeah, I will never date Jake, but it is rather fun trying to win his affection. I'm so lame.

Also, I left out a lot of the good stuff about how I bonded with Seth, Wilson, and this random kid who I think called himself Rocket. Wtf? Whatevs, he was nice and he kept following me around. So yeah I got more accomplished at the lock-in than flirtage, but a girl's gotta have blog priorities :) And today James and I hung out, making me remember why we are such great friends. He is crrrazy. The yin to my yang.

I need more than two hours of sleep. Also- GO HEELS.